I’m humanly incapable of keeping it together. I just can’t.
I’m the lunatic who will bluff her ass off to convince you and then go hide in a corner until you give up trying to find me after having been impressed. I’m that person. I don’t know why I’m that person but I am.
It scares the kuppai out of me. I want this behaviour to stop. I want it to. I’m not sure if it ever will. If someone out there has a remedy, please do be kind and offer it to me. I need to stop hiding from things and from people.